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time of your life - 2000-11-05
It goes like this: I like it in Waterloo, I really do. I like a few of the people still remaining here, I like a few of the places... I know my way around and the drinks at Phil's are cheap. I like it at Laurier, I really do. I like my lunches with my friends, and I like some of my classes. I love the fact that we kick ass at football (I actually don't care, but I couldn't think of anything else, really, I could praise about Laurier...) Laurier is a nice school, good reputation, but I grow tired of it. I know it like the back of my hand, and it honest to goodness feels like high school again. Wilfrid Laurier Secondary School. It's no surprise that I have spent a good many weekends since I started school escaping elsewhere, up North, Toronto, London... It became clear that I owe who I am and what I am to the people and places in the Waterloo region, but the resource is tapped, and I'm not growing. You remember me complaining about feeling numb? It is a dreadful feeling... Well, it is because I am numb to this environment, and there is nothing left here for me to accomplish. I become an automaton, really, reaching a peak in my life that I may bever be able to get over. So, it's the only choice: I'm moving next fall. To London. Now, bastard, you're saying to yourself that Kam is pathetic because he is running into the arms of his girlfriend. Later, you self righteous slug, you will snort under your breath something like "yeah right, what an excuse..." Well shut your mouth, because you don't know, nor will you ever care to understand... Well, that was a little harsh, but I have a little slice of bitterness for a few people who are going to poo poo on my decision. But, they must realize what I need, and I think they will realize it someday. I need to be alone, and self reliant in a city I am unfamiliar with... I need a new place. The fact that I will be living in the same city as my soulmate is a nice aside, but I did not do this for her, or us, I did it all for me. As you see, when you have a soulmate your souls will always meet, despite the distance. I am looking forward to this great change, as I am looking forward to the independance, as well as the new campus to explore. I am excited about pulling a Jeniffer Love Hewitt, and moving to a new city, and learning a great deal about my self, and life, and breast implan- ...forget that last one. Anyhow, I was there last night, in Kim's backyard with her and one of her roomates, coming home from a film. I looked to the sky, and the stars were ten times brighter than they have ever been in Waterloo... Right then and there, I knew that the choice was obvious.
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