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the end - 2000-12-22
Oh, so it's been a while, man... Ach. Time for peanut butter. Hang on... Okay, I am nourished, and maybe a little nautious. Okay. Let's see. This is -stargazing-. Hasn't it felt like I've lost my focus recently, or my inspiration? I mean, I read stuff from six months ago, and it was interesting and fun. But now, I don't know... I'm not terribly sad anymore (for now), but I still am thinking about a lot of scary and serious stuff. I am right on the brink, you know, of everything. Short term, of getting out of this house. Long term of finally establishing an identity. I hate the brink, I hate the edge. I want to be over it and fine. I wonder how much longer I can actually allow myself to whine, bitch and complain about my life via diaryland. Unless inspiration comes, I think this little website venture may come to an end. Yeah, it all comes down to that... Yeah, yeah, I haven't said anything new in months. This website is coming to an end... I hate myself for the repitition that takes place here. I hate myself for the void of ideas that has been around since September. I hate myself for the void of ideas I have become. I hate myself for the sadness that has seeped in through the foundations of -y2k-. Sigh. Time for bed. It's all over. Bye for now.
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