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somewhere in between heaven and hell - 2000-07-19
"If this is Heaven, we'll be alright..." Because in Heaven, everything is fine. And when something with the potential to make things unfine arises, it is worked out peacefully, and beneficially... Closer to God's jurisdiction, too... But when I say Heaven, I should not really talk about the Biblical sense. Heaven, besides being a physical plane of existence, is a state of mind, at least in the living years. God, too, in this case is metaphorical. God is control, and inspiration, and influences... The things that keep you in touch with emotions. So, say I was in Heaven, by default, everyone in my life is in Heaven too. And, if we are in Heaven, everything is fine. What is happening now is just a downpour, and a little bit of thunder... The happy clouds are being shook around a bit. Some of the people are bumping into each other, and others are turning away from each other. It is not a terribly chaotic scene. God may be away, vacationing. It's not as if Heaven's on fire, or anything... "...If we're in Hell, it's way passed midnight." Okay, so maybe all of this bumping leads to a riot, and the people start overturning cloud cars, and setting St. Vince's Kwik Mart on fire... God is attacked by three punks on roller skates, and is nowhere to be found. Heaven would be on fire, and it would not stop burning. It, typically, would be Hell. Now, Hell is not a physical place, so take the flames and the anguish metaphorically. Apply it to Y2K, and his relationships. If we're in Hell, than things have deteriorated (burned) a great deal... and may be burned beyond recognition. The flames may have reached my soul, and left it numb... And it may take a while for me to climb up, and start feeling again. Notice how I am saying nothing definitive... I am in Limbo. I feel, I have emotions... but for the love of God, I have no fucking clue what they are... It's as if they are hanging on a wall in my mind with a cloth over them, like some grand art-unveiling. Right now I just am. In between Heaven and Hell, or at least, blind to the one I am in. There is an absence of God (but certainly not faith). I guess just waiting for some activity... much like my computer awaits commands. C:y2ksoulemotions>_
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