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gone til november - 2000-11-01
November... I remember writing last year at this time on the website that was all white and gray. It seems like a million years ago, really. I remember writing about how much I was hoping for November rain, so I could make a reference to the song of the same name. I try to compare myself then, to now, and it's hard because I feel exactly the same, yet I KNOW I am different. I have sincerely fond memories of last year, ones that I would kill to relive. A common pattern in my life is to always appreciate the past more than the present. Last year at this time, I was looking back at the year prior, and so forth... I have never been too good at looking to the future. Until now. Right now is blah, but it is fine, and I'm sure I will have nostalgia over my first year of university in due time... Nostalgia everytime I drive by Phil's Grandson's Place... Etcetera. But I am looking into the future like I never have before. Certain people are inspiring me that my life won't be the void of misery it is perceived to be in the student years, that the future is open and bright and will be filled with stars, like an Algonquin sky. I made a decision this week that I will share with you next week in a heart-felt confession. Stay tuned.
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