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blue eyed soul - 2000-07-06
I spent last night reading -stargazing- that I had stargazed circa September 1999, which was a lovely, and very important period of my life. This is when I first started "crushing" on Kim, and embarked on the greatest journey of personal discovery I have ever came back healthy from. My writing was much more brief and concise, and I found myself to be funnier, and more bitter, certainly. I hope the two don't go hand in hand. Anyhow, this all made me feel better, and made my world spin less... Set me straight and realized just how far I have come, and how lovely it is here, and how ugly it was there. I still am semi-charmed... For example: I spent this morning with said Kim, and it was lovely and a great time, the best we've had, I felt, in weeks. Everything just seemed refreshed... Like it felt when we first dated and talked in my old car for hours, only more playful, and less awkward. Here is my confession: I wasn't quite sure how to take our relationship after the unpleasantness of this past weekend. I was worried, frankly, about scars. But five minutes before I left I looked into her eyes and they were a colour they never were before. Brighter and more calming, and quite lovely, and I remembered just how important and wonderful we are and it just melted any worry or hard feelings away. So things are looking up, again. Maybe not cheerful, but up.
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